A live online interview with Bela about her passion for primal and how her work is based on Osho’s insights around early childhood conditioning.
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The Rebel 20-25 May 2026
“The rebel is in a state of tremendous love with freedom — total freedom, nothing less than that. Hence, he has no savior, no God’s messenger, no messiah, no guide; he simply moves according to his own nature. He does not follow anybody; he does not imitate anybody. Certainly, he has chosen the most dangerous way of life; full of responsibility, but of tremendous joy and freedom.” Osho
WHO IS THIS COURSE FOR?
This process is for adult people with a sincere longing to take the responsibility for their life in their hands. By owning responsibility for your actions you will create the freedom to choose how you would like to live your life in accordance with your truth and essential qualities.
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With meditation at the core of each method, questioning your basic beliefs about yourself, others and the world surrounding you, your own truth will unfold and surface out of this radical inner inquiry.
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Pre-requisite is to have participated in Primal Deconditioning Intensive before. This process will be supported by OSHO® Active Meditations.
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DETAILED COURSE DESCRIPTION:
Click here The Rebel
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GENERAL INFORMATION:
Dates: 20-25 May 2026 (5 days and nights) .
Check-in is open and not later than 4pm (16:00) on 20 May.
The course finishes on 25 May at 6pm (18:00).
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The course will be held in English.
Price: write to Roger
The number of participants is limited to ensure the quality of the interactiveness that this kind of course requires.
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APPROXIMATE TIMINGS:
16:00-16:15 arriving and settling in
16:15-16:30 welcome and registration
16:30-16:45 tea break
16:45-18:00 OSHO Meditation including instructions
18:00-20:00 dinner
20:00-22:30 evening session
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Course days:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:15 course structure including restroom break
17:15-18:30 OSHO Kundalini Meditation including instructions
18:30-20:00 dinner.
20:00-22:30 OSHO Evening Meeting or course structure including restroom break
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Last day:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:00 course structure including restroom break
17:00-18:00 completion
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SIGNING UP:
Participants can only sign up for The Rebel course after filling out an application form. This application form is part of the process and thus confidential.
To receive this form, please write a message to Roger expressing your interest in the course.
An early bird price is applicable for approved registrations before 1 April 2026.
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Love,
Roger & Bela
Primal Deconditioning Intensive 11-18 May 2027
WHO IS THIS COURSE FOR?
For anybody who has a deep longing to know oneself. Without primal at the base of every therapy and personal development work, we will not be able to live and experience our life authentically or be in alignment with our essence, free from judgments, shame and other limiting addictive behaviors.
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With meditation at the core of each method, questioning your basic beliefs about yourself, others and the world surrounding you, your own truth will unfold and surface out of this radical inner inquiry.
.
This process is supported by OSHO® Active Meditations, so it is important that you have some experience of OSHO® Dynamic and OSHO® Kundalini Meditation and preferably have done some emotional release work before.
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DETAILED COURSE DESCRIPTION:
Click here Primal Deconditioning Intensive
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GENERAL INFORMATION:
Dates: 11-18 May 2027 (7 days and nights) .
Check-in is open and not later than 4pm (16:00) on 11 May.
The course finishes on 18 May at 6pm (18:00).
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The course will be held in English.
Price: write to Roger
The number of participants is limited to ensure the quality of the interactiveness that this kind of course requires.
.
APPROXIMATE TIMINGS:
Starting day:
16:00-16:15 arriving and settling in
16:15-16:30 welcome and registration
16:30-16:45 tea break
16:45-18:00 OSHO Meditation including instructions
18:00-19:30 dinner
19:30-23:00 evening session
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Course days:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:15 course structure including restroom break
17:15-18:30 OSHO Kundalini Meditation including instructions
18:30-20:00 dinner.
20:00-23:30 course structure including restroom break.
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Last day:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:15 course structure including restroom break
17:15-18:00 completion
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SIGNING UP:
Participants can only sign up for the Primal Deconditioning Intensive course after filling out an application form. This application form is part of the process and thus confidential. Please write to Roger expressing your interest in the course after which your name will be entered on a reservation list.
From 1 February 2027 onwards you will receive the application form by email, to see if this process is in your best interest.
An early bird price is applicable for approved registrations before 1 April 2027.
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Love,
Roger & Bela
The Rebel 20-25 May 2027
“The rebel is in a state of tremendous love with freedom — total freedom, nothing less than that. Hence, he has no savior, no God’s messenger, no messiah, no guide; he simply moves according to his own nature. He does not follow anybody; he does not imitate anybody. Certainly, he has chosen the most dangerous way of life; full of responsibility, but of tremendous joy and freedom.” Osho
WHO IS THIS COURSE FOR?
This process is for adult people with a sincere longing to take the responsibility for their life in their hands. By owning responsibility for your actions you will create the freedom to choose how you would like to live your life in accordance with your truth and essential qualities.
.
With meditation at the core of each method, questioning your basic beliefs about yourself, others and the world surrounding you, your own truth will unfold and surface out of this radical inner inquiry.
.
Pre-requisite is to have participated in Primal Deconditioning Intensive before. This process will be supported by OSHO® Active Meditations.
.
DETAILED COURSE DESCRIPTION:
Click here The Rebel
.
GENERAL INFORMATION:
Dates: 20-25 May 2026 (5 days and nights) .
Check-in is open and not later than 4pm (16:00) on 20 May.
The course finishes on 25 May at 6pm (18:00).
.
The course will be held in English.
Price: write to Roger
The number of participants is limited to ensure the quality of the interactiveness that this kind of course requires.
.
APPROXIMATE TIMINGS:
16:00-16:15 arriving and settling in
16:15-16:30 welcome and registration
16:30-16:45 tea break
16:45-18:00 OSHO Meditation including instructions
18:00-20:00 dinner
20:00-22:30 evening session
.
Course days:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:15 course structure including restroom break
17:15-18:30 OSHO Kundalini Meditation including instructions
18:30-20:00 dinner.
20:00-22:30 OSHO Evening Meeting or course structure including restroom break
.
Last day:
07:00-08:15 OSHO Dynamic Meditation including instructions
08:15-10:00 breakfast and shower (in silence)
10:00-13:00 course structure including tea/restroom break
13:00-14:00 lunch break
14:00-17:00 course structure including restroom break
17:00-18:00 completion
.
SIGNING UP:
Participants can only sign up for The Rebel course after filling out an application form. This application form is part of the process and thus confidential.
To receive this form, please write a message to Roger expressing your interest in the course.
An early bird price is applicable for approved registrations before 1 April 2027.
.
Love,
Roger & Bela
I feel the same as I did when I was a little child
Osho,
Since being with you so much growth and maturity has happened in me, I have changed in every aspect. At the same time, when I look into myself, I feel the same as I did when I was a little child. Is this my witness, or something else?
“It is your witness
“Just remember one thing, that the feeling of being a child can be experienced in two ways. You can be a witness and the experience of childhood can be an object. Then one more step is needed: You have to become the purity, the innocence of the child; not separate – you are it.
“It will come. This is how it comes: first it comes as an object; you are still separate and watching it. This is beautiful and a great experience – all rubbish is thrown out and you are feeling a very pure, innocent state – but you are still separate from it. Just go on witnessing it, and soon even the childhood will disappear, and there will be only the witness, the subjectivity. There will be only the mirror without mirroring anything. Then you have arrived home.
“You can mirror beautiful things, and it is good, but when the mirror is absolutely empty… One of the Buddhist scriptures has the name The Empty Mirror. That exactly describes the ultimate state of consciousness, when you simply are. And there is nothing – not even childhood, not even silence, not even peace, not even blissfulness – nothing that you can observe.
“This ocean of nothingness surrounding you is nirvana. There is nothing more to explore. There is nothing more to find.
“But as it is going it is good: you are changing, and even to feel one’s childhood is a great experience. But greater experiences are ahead. Don’t stop, just continue till only you are left, alone, without a second.”
That is the Truth
Osho,
For the past seven years I have heard you speaking about truth. But this is still an empty word for me. Often you say that one knows truth when one is silent inside. I know this delicious feeling that takes me over when I close my eyes and become quiet inside, but what is truth to do with that?
“That is the truth.
“Truth is not an object that you will find somewhere when you are silent. Truth is your subjectivity. Just try to understand. You are there, and the whole world is there. Whatever you see is an object, but who is seeing is the subject.
“In silence all objects disappear – and the word object has to be remembered; it is the same word as objection. Object means that which prevents you. So all preventions, all objects, all objections, disappear; you have the whole infinity, and just silence. It is full of consciousness, it is full of presence, of your being. But you will not find anything as the truth – that would become an object. Truth is never an object.
“Truth is subjectivity. To discover your subjectivity – unhindered, unobjected to by anything, in its total infinity and eternalness – is the truth.
“’The truth’ is only a way of speaking; there is not something labeled “Truth,” that one day you will find and open the box and see the contents and say, “Great! I have found the truth.” There is no such box.
“Your existence is the truth, and when you are silent you are in truth. If the silence is absolute then you are the ultimate truth. But don’t think of the truth as an object – it is not an object. It is not there, it is here.”
I am intrigued by doors, gates, and fences
Behind every door another door leading to more spaciousness and understanding
I guess because in between a gate and a fence my life as a little child unfolded.
The gate was supposed to protect me from the outside world, where the other people lived, cars drove by, and if you did not know the way you would get lost. I often held its bars and daydreamed how it would be to travel that unknown world and get lost.
The fence was to prevent me from drowning in the village harbor that marked the end of our garden. Where according to my mom a monster lived that would pull your legs and keep you forever in the dark water. Drowning was a word I did not really understand then. But the thought of being kept in the dark, was enough for me to try to come close enough for me to look in the dark water to see if I could catch a glimpse of this monster.
Doors have always intrigued me as a child because they marked a halt, a pause, a forbidden or hidden and at times scary place behind it, where things happened or were kept not to be seen or heard by me.
I remember myself as a child gathering courage to open a door or felt so deeply that the door was keeping me away from my freedom. I have felt many times excluded when I found a closed door. I remember doors that were forbidden to be opened by me, and still, I would do it if I got the chance.
Now every door tells me a story of the person living behind it. I am intrigued to find a way to open closed doors. I knock and open many doors in my own inner world, and support people to do the same.
Behind every door another door leading to more spaciousness and understanding.
What happens when you are under a superego attack?
Your superego is built up out of the spoken, or unspoken, internalized critical voices of your parents or direct caretakers
When your superego or inner critic is in action, you are likely to be confronted with feelings of self-sabotage, self-violence, guilt, shame, inferiority, superiority, self-hatred, self-blame–the list is long.
In addition to trying not feel this painful inner turmoil, we have a huge tendency to act out in our addictions, which in turn, keeps us going round and round in the same circle of punishment and reward.
This same technique of punishment and reward has been used by our caregivers in the past to make us believe that if we did not do, act, behaved, as we were told to, we would not be loved, be ignored, be excluded, be left behind, resulting in us feeling abandoned and deprived of love.
Because as little children we cannot live without our parents or vital caretakers, the impact of not being loved, ignored, excluded, left behind, and abandonment on the psyche of the little child is beyond imagination for an adult person; however, for this little child it feels like and equals a threat of dying.
Helpless as we are as children, we cannot do anything else than compromising our authentic self; stronger even, we make it go into hiding, so deeply, that we ourselves cannot remember it anymore.
We become that what our parents or direct caretakers tell us who we are or want us to be. In this process the ego is created and from then onwards we as children start to believe that we ARE what is told to us and expected from us. Later in life we collect more voices, mostly based on, and connected to the earlier internalized voices, we tend to take on critical remarks from our siblings, extended family, priests, teachers, bosses, and lovers to name a few. You can say that your ego takes the latter as confirmations of what you have received before from your direct caregivers.
We “become” the critical remarks that were given to us: Being ugly, stupid, unworthy of love, fat, too skinny; not allowed to exist we act all this out in our day-to-day life.
Yes, this hiding our authentic self was an immensely intelligent act at the time we were children, because we were just not equipped to fight against the grown-ups taking care of us.
However, in our adult life, this “defense mechanism” starts to work against us: Causing us a deep pain of not feeling good enough, unworthy of love, insignificant, bad, feeling lost, deprived of purpose, or feeling that we do not belong, and so on.
These feelings mostly come up very strongly in the moments we come “out of the box”. Meaning moving into unknown territory, often related to becoming visible, and again becoming more real and authentic.
In a primal process we work through the layers of our wounded child, the ego, and superego to bring acknowledgement, healing, understanding and love to these parts that had to come into existence after we had to leave our authentic self. We start to remember again who we were at the beginning of our lives: An innocent child full of love, light, and purity.
You have an Inner Child
The importance of acknowledging and understanding the realm of your Inner Child
The term “Inner Child” is a metaphor that is referred to and used to bring us in contact with our most sensitive and vulnerable part inside us. It also safe keeps our essence, the intrinsic qualities that we brought with us into this world at birth. It defines us as the unique (human) being we are. It is the doorway into our Being.
“Being” defines the deepest intimate place inside us, where in aloneness we feel and experience love, wholeness, and a sense of belonging, regardless of our outer circumstances. It connects us with and brings us closer to that which always surrounds us, the existence, where we come from, which we consist of, and will return to. The physical location of the “Being” is more or less 2 inches below the navel inside the body.
As Being has no form or shape, it is easier (at the beginning) to connect with our Inner Child, because we have a felt and sensed memory of who we were in the past. We experience our Inner Child as a material manifestation, closest and in contact with our Being qualities, our essence. Yet, awareness about our essence as a child is lacking in us.
The journey we call LIFE is the playground for us to become aware of our essence, our Being. The invitation is to become childlike again but this time with awareness. The Inner Child is to be re-discovered through primal therapy; the awareness is reached through meditation.
Truth is a paradox
“It is not you who is asking the questions; it is the mind, your enemy, who is putting the questions through you. It is the mind who is saying, “Osho, you continuously tell us to “be aware,” to “be a witness.” But can a witnessing consciousness really sing, dance and taste life?” Yes – in fact only a witnessing consciousness can really sing, dance and taste life. It will appear like a paradox. It is. But all that is true is always paradoxical, remember. If truth is not paradoxical then it is not truth at all, then it is something else.
“Paradox is a basic, intrinsic quality of truth – let it sink into your heart forever. Truth as such is paradoxical. Although all paradoxes are not truths, all truths are paradoxes. The truth has to be a paradox because it has to be both the poles – the negative and the positive – and yet a transcendence. It has to be life and death, and plus. By “plus” I mean the transcendence of both – both and both not. That is the ultimate paradox.
“When you are in the mind, how can you sing? The mind creates misery; out of misery there can be no song. When you are in the mind, how can you dance? Yes, you can go through certain empty gestures called dance, but it is not a real dance.
“The real dance happens only when you have become a witness. Then you are so blissful that the very bliss starts overflowing – that is the dance. The very bliss starts singing; a song arises on its own accord. And only when you are a witness can you taste life.” Osho
Primal Laughter
“When the child is born there is a great shock to the whole system. That shock is the primal. One has to go backwards to relive that shock. Once that shock is relived you are freed from all crying. Then instead of crying, laughter starts arising in your heart, and real laughter arises only then.
Only a primal process can bring a person to real laughter, otherwise people go on laughing but the laughter is not true. It is just manipulated, managed; it is fake, it is pseudo. It is just on the mask — not on their real face. Just the mask goes on smiling; it does not come from the heart. It is just created in the throat. It is shallow. Only after a primal experience does one start laughing. Then the laughter comes from the very soles of your feet. It spreads all over your body. It is mad! It is authentic, it is existential, it is great ecstasy!” Osho
In a Better World
“In a better world, every family will learn from children. You are in such a hurry to teach them. Nobody seems to learn from them, and they have much to teach you. And you have nothing to teach them.
“Just because you are older and powerful you start making them just like you without ever thinking about what you are, where you have reached, what your status is in the inner world. You are a pauper; and you want the same for your child also?
“But nobody thinks; otherwise people would learn from small children. Children bring so much from the other world because they are such fresh arrivals. They still carry the silence of the womb, the silence of the very existence.” Osho